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Let us play pretend for bit.

I got the base idea for LT my senior year, but it wasn’t until two months ago that I started actually writing it. I tried and tried to write it before, but nothing worked. Nothing. One day after watching a interview with Veronica Roth about her most recent book, it clicked. I started writing, and I couldn’t stop.

Until now.

I am at 23K, twenty three thousand words. All of them useless, because I am stuck. There is nowhere left for the book to go. I have the ending written, I have the beginning written. It is the getting from point A to point B that is the problem. I have never gotten this far before.

So until I can move past this writers block, I will pretend like it is going to be a best seller. I will pretend that it is already published, and in the hands of readers everywhere. I will pretend like I have fan pages for my book, and that everyone is awaiting the next installment in the series.  I will pretend, that I am going to one day be signing books at Barnes and Noble; because lets face it, you have not really made it until you have a book signing at Barnes and Nobel.

Well I guess that is more of a half way point. When the book is a movie, that is when you have made it!

LT will never be there, I know that. Very few books actually get there, but while it is still my personal project. While I am the only one that has seen it, I can pretend that it is everything, and more!

When I have finished writing LT, I will edit it, then I might let someone read it. Then I will edit again, and again, and again. Honestly, I am looking forward to the editing stage. Once it is reader worthy, or part way there. I will look for an agent. I will be turned down a couple of hundred times, then finally I will find someone that thinks my book is worth something. I would love to be published with Harper Collins, but that won’t happen. I will probably end up with a very tiny company, that has very little to offer; but I will be happy, because I will be published.

Once I am published, I will do a happy dance, then I will go back to banging my head on the key board; because I have more than one book I want to write.

If I ever finish LT, I will treat myself to as much Cheesecake Factory 30th Anniversary Cheesecake I can eat.

That is if I get past twenty-three thousand words.

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Where do you want to be in five years?

This was one question that I got asked all of the time my senior year, that and where are you going to college? I came up with some answer, it usually changed depending on how in-depth I wanted to get, that and who was asking.

I have always had big goals in life, (I will admit that they were sometimes a little unrealistic, but what is the point in dreaming if you don’t go all out?)

In five years, I want have my book done, and my masters in Psychology. That is realistic right? Five years is a long time to write a book and get a degree. Not that those are the only things I want to have accomplished. I want to have much, much more done than that.

Has anyone ever realized how long five years is? Five years is a long time. Not in the scheme of things, but still. That is 1,825 days.

That no one is promised.  Maybe that’s the scariest part.

The fact that none of us really know how long we have. Why do we waste so much time? When we take in to consideration that we might not have the next 1,825 days to get things done, would the things that we care about now really mater? If you had five years to live, would you change how you are living today?

I know I would.

I would let go of things that weren’t in my control, I would try to worry less over all. I would spend more time doing things that make me happy, and that I care about. I would spend more time studying God’s word, and talking to him. I would talk to everyone I met, I would try to change as many lives as I could. Not to quote John Green, but the marks humans leave are too often scars, and I would want to make sure that any scars I made were replaced with love.

The good thing, is that most of us have longer than five years to live, and we need to start living like that today. Because the truth is, that no one knows when their last day will be.

 

This post took an unexpected turn, so maybe tomorrow night I will blog about the topic I actually wanted to blog about.

 

I’m Back, Kind of

Last week I deiced to take a break from the blogosphre, and work on my book. Just kidding. Actually I had a blog post that I wrote, and felt like I should publish, but in the end I didn’t. I couldn’t. So you guys got a break from me, and I got a chance to do other things.

On the truthful side, I have been working on my book, and it just hit 20K words. Which sounds great , (and it is), but I still have a minimum of 30K to go. Honestly, I think my book is a piece of junk, but that’s okay, because it still loves me. I have decided that if I ever finish it, I will celebrate by eating an entire  Trial Cake, all by my self. I will explain what a Trial cake is when I figure out exactly what it will consist of. I have not decided what I will do if, if, I get it published. That is a big, big if.

Just in case anyone is wondering, (which you probably are not), no. You are not allowed to read it, see it, or get on to my computer and read it. I will however, be looking for people to read it, if and when I finish it. So keep checking back.

I must go now, Willah (Jacob added the h on the end)  is chewing on the wall again.

The Journey

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11

I think that sometimes we all get too caught up in the final project that we sometimes forget about the between times. The journey. Sometimes I think we get lost in the moment, knocking out obstacles, that we forget to appreciate the small things, the blessings in the moment. If all you are focused on is the end result, you will miss so much of the joy,

lessons, and growth that can come from waiting, form the journey.What good would a book be if we all just jumped to the ending?

If it wasn’t for the journey, we wouldn’t be able to grow. Jacob and I have goals, we have an idea of where we want to be in life five years from now; but we aren’t rushing to get there. We might want children five years from now, but that doesn’t mean we want them right now. We aren’t ready for children, nor are we ready to have our forever home. We still have a lot of growing to do together, and we have time to do that. I don’t want to start off at the top. If Jacob and I already had everything worked out, we would miss out on so much together. We are both still learning and discovering what our passions are, and what our calling is, but one day we will find them out, and it will be great. The thing is no one knows where God is going to call them in life, and when God says move, you move.

Jacob and I don’t know what God will tell us to do in five years. We can have plans all we want, and to us they may seem perfect, but more often than not God has his own agenda; and it usually doesn’t match our own. Unlike us, God likes to slowly introduce us to our plan. If he told us our plan all at once, we would probably do everything in our power to change those plans; because God is more powerful than man ever thought to be, and he knows what we are capable of, even when we don’t. So even if you aren’t where you want to be in life, remind yourself that God has a plan for you, and it is perfect. Sometimes we just have to trust in God. He knows what we are going to be doing ten years from now, he has control over the situation. Even if it doesn’t always feel like it.  He has a plan for all of us, and those plans are fool proof.

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