I’m Back

So lately I have not been in much of a blogging mood lately. I have been pretty stressed with some personal stuff the past couple of weeks. Thankfully that is over now, so I can get back to life. Isn’t it amazing how much something can affect your life without you even realizing it? The human mind is capable of such amazing things. So much is going on right now, I have no clue where to start.

My parasols came in last week! Jacob donated money to the dance program so I could have them. I am so thankful that I got those, they look wonderful and the girls love to dance with them. (Pictures to come soon)

I finished the first draft of TLT, it didn’t get to 50K, and it needed a lot of work. I sent it to Rachel, and a few people from the Go Teen Writers page, and I got some really good feed back from them. One of them gave me some great tips, and did a really in-depth edit. She should be an editor, she pointed out the good and the bad, and not only did she tell me what needed to fix, she showed me how to fix it. I am not trashing it. I am going to keep working on it, but I need to do a lot more world building, and I need to develop some sub-plots and whatnot. More importantly…

I have two new project.

Project one. I woke up the other morning at four, and knew what I needed to write. I had a title and main idea. I thought I wrote it down, well I thought wrong. Thankfully, I was able to remember it. So I started writing it. I have no clue how to write it yet, it’s not a normal fiction book. It is actually a non-fiction, which is new to me. I won’t say any more than that. It is a book that I feel needs to be written, but no one is going to even know the name of until I am sure about it.

Project two. I started writing it a couple of weeks ago just to get it out of my head, but it is actually turning in to a book. It wasn’t supposed to be anything, just random paragraphs when I needed to get out of my head; but it is turning in to so much more than that. It is non-fiction, and it has a Faults in Our Stars vibe about it. (That was not intentional!) I am not sure where this book is going, but it has a title that I have fallen in love with, but will not release yet.

I feel like both of these books are more important than TLT. These stories need to be told, and I am the one to tell them. I will keep you posted.

I have been spending time on the schools cheer program, but that is another blog post. I shall write again soon, I promise.


Why Getting Married Means Divorce

Getting married means that you have to get divorced. Not to your spouse, but to your stuff. No matter what life was like before you got married it is inevitable, you are going to have a lot of junk, and your partner will have their fair share as well. It doesn’t take a genius to figure out that as soon as you move in together, there will be a lot of junk! Unless you have an unlimited amount of storage space, you are going to have to divorce some of it.

Three weeks after we got married I divorced half of my bathroom. I had kept everything I had ever used. It took two hours, but when I was done I had four trash bags of old shampoo, conditioner, body wash, hair products, combs, make-up. You name it, there was some of it in my cabinets. I had not gone through those cabinets, since we had re-painted my bathroom six maybe seven years ago. It was truly insane; but it was worth it. Jacob had room for his stuff, I had more storage space, and ultimately we were both happier.

Same goes for your closet. Jacob and I went through our closet together. The plan is to get in our house ASAP, but until then, we had to have more room in our closet. So we got three tubs. One for keepsake items, (like vacation t-shirts, or things like cheer uniforms). Two for summer clothes, and one basket for things that needed to be given away. I just thought it took a long time to go through my bathroom. It took us hours to go through all of it.

However, it was seriously worth the time, and effort it took to get rid of all of it. We were both so much happier, because we finally had room to move around a little.

Life Changes

Life changes, it is a fact of life. People will say things like “Without change there wouldn’t be any butterflies.”  Life changes, and not all changes are good. I know God works all things out for the better of his people. But that doesn’t mean that it is all going to be good, and that life is always going to change the way you want it to, because the truth is; no one has complete control of their life. No. One. Does.

There is only one person who does, God. God has control, and you know what His plans are totally different than your plans. He has control to put people in your life, than yank them away. In the long run, that might be better; but in the mean time it stinks.

It hurts, when people don’t talk to you, or when they do everything they can to avoid you. When people walk out of your life, it hurts. Even if those people leave unintentionally. It hurts when people aren’t considerate of other people. It just does; but you want to know what I have learned from all of it? From all of the times that people have ignored my texts, got up and left from the lunch table, lied to me because they just didn’t want to talk at that moment, ignored me while I was talk to them.

I have learned that people are flawed, we all are. There is not a single human being that is perfect, we all make mistakes. I learned that you can not live your life for people. You have to live your life for God. You can’t change your entire life for some if they won’t do the same for you.

God is going to be there at the end of every day, and even if you feel like he has left you in the dark, when you feel like he has hung up on you. He hasn’t he is waiting on the other end of the line, waiting for you to come back. When you feel alone, and like no one wants to be your friend, when you feel like no one can understand what you are going through; God does, and he is always there, always listening. God doesn’t move, people do. God promises that he won’t leave us, he is constant. He always has, and he always will be there. Waiting.

I think that the best thing about God, is that he will always love you. No matter what you did, he is willing to forgive you, and let you back in to his arms. No matter how far you run, he will always be sitting there with open arms, waiting for you. It is one of the hardest things for us as people to believe, because as people we aren’t like that. But God is bigger than all of us, he is the most patient, understanding, loving, and accepting thing there is; and He will always love you. He will always be there.

Next time you feel alone, like the world has turned its’ back on you, remember

that God hasn’t and that he is always waiting for you to talk to him.

I do not own the rights to this picture. You can find it here.


Let us play pretend for bit.

I got the base idea for LT my senior year, but it wasn’t until two months ago that I started actually writing it. I tried and tried to write it before, but nothing worked. Nothing. One day after watching a interview with Veronica Roth about her most recent book, it clicked. I started writing, and I couldn’t stop.

Until now.

I am at 23K, twenty three thousand words. All of them useless, because I am stuck. There is nowhere left for the book to go. I have the ending written, I have the beginning written. It is the getting from point A to point B that is the problem. I have never gotten this far before.

So until I can move past this writers block, I will pretend like it is going to be a best seller. I will pretend that it is already published, and in the hands of readers everywhere. I will pretend like I have fan pages for my book, and that everyone is awaiting the next installment in the series.  I will pretend, that I am going to one day be signing books at Barnes and Noble; because lets face it, you have not really made it until you have a book signing at Barnes and Nobel.

Well I guess that is more of a half way point. When the book is a movie, that is when you have made it!

LT will never be there, I know that. Very few books actually get there, but while it is still my personal project. While I am the only one that has seen it, I can pretend that it is everything, and more!

When I have finished writing LT, I will edit it, then I might let someone read it. Then I will edit again, and again, and again. Honestly, I am looking forward to the editing stage. Once it is reader worthy, or part way there. I will look for an agent. I will be turned down a couple of hundred times, then finally I will find someone that thinks my book is worth something. I would love to be published with Harper Collins, but that won’t happen. I will probably end up with a very tiny company, that has very little to offer; but I will be happy, because I will be published.

Once I am published, I will do a happy dance, then I will go back to banging my head on the key board; because I have more than one book I want to write.

If I ever finish LT, I will treat myself to as much Cheesecake Factory 30th Anniversary Cheesecake I can eat.

That is if I get past twenty-three thousand words.

I do not own the rights to this picture.

The Faults in our Stars

Most people on the day of the Superbowl watch football. Me, I read a book. Like most people I watched the trailer

for The Faults in out Stars, and fell in love with it. I had not read the book, because it was a cancer book; and we all know how those end.

Why can’t they make one, just one where they all live? But no, they can’t possibly do that, there wouldn’t be a point. For once I would like to see a cancer book actually end happy. Now days peoples chances of surviving are getting higher and higher (for most cancers). So why can’t we have a book work the same way? Is it too much to ask?

Sorry, end rant.

Anyway, I did the one thing I said I wouldn’t do. I read the book. and I Cried. My. Eyes. Out.

The first half of the book was funny, and enjoyable and romantic. Then you have the second half that is sort of funny and heart wrenching.  I cried and I cried and I cried. But it was only for the last I don’t know,thirty pages?

However all, it was a really good book, and I recommend it. But make sure you have some tissues first.

I bought my copy at Walmart, but you can buy it here from Amazon.

I’m Back, Kind of

Last week I deiced to take a break from the blogosphre, and work on my book. Just kidding. Actually I had a blog post that I wrote, and felt like I should publish, but in the end I didn’t. I couldn’t. So you guys got a break from me, and I got a chance to do other things.

On the truthful side, I have been working on my book, and it just hit 20K words. Which sounds great , (and it is), but I still have a minimum of 30K to go. Honestly, I think my book is a piece of junk, but that’s okay, because it still loves me. I have decided that if I ever finish it, I will celebrate by eating an entire  Trial Cake, all by my self. I will explain what a Trial cake is when I figure out exactly what it will consist of. I have not decided what I will do if, if, I get it published. That is a big, big if.

Just in case anyone is wondering, (which you probably are not), no. You are not allowed to read it, see it, or get on to my computer and read it. I will however, be looking for people to read it, if and when I finish it. So keep checking back.

I must go now, Willah (Jacob added the h on the end)  is chewing on the wall again.

Bride and Groom session (part two)

As much as I hated to, I had to cancel our bride and groom session again. Not because of work but because of the weather. A high of 42, with wind!? No way am I getting my butt out side in a strapless dress to take pictures for two hours. Once again, there is a bright side to rescheduling.

When I rescheduled the first time, I didn’t think to look at the rest of the week. Turns out it is the day after he gets off his four nights. We worked around it though. Mom would drive us up there, drop us off, go shopping, then get us and take us home. Everything would work out. Mom could lace up my dress, and Jacob could sleep on the way there and back.

Then today I checked the weather. A high of 42, a low of 28 with wind out of the North.  I was miserable for the twenty minuets we were taking pictures out side during the wedding. I can’t imagine being out side for two hours in it. Luckily I was able to cancel my hair appointment and all. I feel really bad for canceling on Havi and my hair lady twice. We decided to post pone rescheduling it for a while.

As a way to apologize for boring you with another post, here is a photo of a Sheepadoodle, they are so adorable!

I found it on Pinterest, without a link.

The Journey

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11

I think that sometimes we all get too caught up in the final project that we sometimes forget about the between times. The journey. Sometimes I think we get lost in the moment, knocking out obstacles, that we forget to appreciate the small things, the blessings in the moment. If all you are focused on is the end result, you will miss so much of the joy,

lessons, and growth that can come from waiting, form the journey.What good would a book be if we all just jumped to the ending?

If it wasn’t for the journey, we wouldn’t be able to grow. Jacob and I have goals, we have an idea of where we want to be in life five years from now; but we aren’t rushing to get there. We might want children five years from now, but that doesn’t mean we want them right now. We aren’t ready for children, nor are we ready to have our forever home. We still have a lot of growing to do together, and we have time to do that. I don’t want to start off at the top. If Jacob and I already had everything worked out, we would miss out on so much together. We are both still learning and discovering what our passions are, and what our calling is, but one day we will find them out, and it will be great. The thing is no one knows where God is going to call them in life, and when God says move, you move.

Jacob and I don’t know what God will tell us to do in five years. We can have plans all we want, and to us they may seem perfect, but more often than not God has his own agenda; and it usually doesn’t match our own. Unlike us, God likes to slowly introduce us to our plan. If he told us our plan all at once, we would probably do everything in our power to change those plans; because God is more powerful than man ever thought to be, and he knows what we are capable of, even when we don’t. So even if you aren’t where you want to be in life, remind yourself that God has a plan for you, and it is perfect. Sometimes we just have to trust in God. He knows what we are going to be doing ten years from now, he has control over the situation. Even if it doesn’t always feel like it.  He has a plan for all of us, and those plans are fool proof.


Bride and Groom Session?

Since Jacob and I got married last month, we have had a bride and groom session booked. I have been looking forward to it ever since. I was so excited for the chance to get back n my dress, and have more pictures of Jacob and I. Unfortunately they called Jacob in for over time yesterday. After we rented a tux. Thankfully they let him off early. Which I didn’t find out till after I canceled my hair appointment. By the time he got home, got the tux, and left the house, we were already running twenty minuets behind. When I got in the car, and half way to Dallas, I realized that I left my eye shadow at home, well  worked that out with make shift eye shadow. Then I realized I forgot my lipstick. Then we got thirty minuets out, it had taken longer than planned, and I had forgotten about the time it takes to put on my dress. At this point I decided to text Havi, (our photographer). She was great about it, and agreed that we should reschedule, so we moved it to next Monday. We were already in Dallas, so we decided to make the best of it.

We went to North Park, and just my luck that I would be wearing scrub pants, and left with only a pair of heels, and Jacob was in slacks a t-shirt. We looked ridiculous. I did take pictures, but I will not share them.

we bummed around, and we bought something a little more appropriate for dinner. We went to Hobby Lobby, and I picked up the stuff to make a project I am working on for our house. Then we ate dinner at The Melting Pot, it was so good. I loved it, and Jacob has been dieing to go there. It was romantic, and we can’t wait to take our pictures next week. It was a long day yesterday,but it ended up being wonderful.

I expected this post to be a lot longer, but I am tired of repeating the story, and it is not as funny in a blog post than it is in person.